For my Sarah

So I haven't posted on here in FOREVER. But I just need to vent right now.

On Tuesday, March 27 2007 my best friend Sarah died. I've never been one to deal with death well, and this is just too much to deal with. I still can't go a day without thinking about Sarah. I cry inside constantly, just thinking about her. Right now I'm crying so much, it's hard to even put it into words.
Sarah was the most amazing person I've ever known. She had the sweetest, most gorgeous blue eyes. She was amazingly smart and talented. When you heard her play her flute, it was as if a goddess was playing. Sarah was always there for me. She let me complain about silly stuff like school while she had real life issues to deal with. I remember sending her a message about a month complaining about how I didn't really have any good friends except her, especially female ones. She reponded that since being in the hospital she could really see who her friends were. Sarah was a best friend to many.

Not sure what else to say right now so here is what I said about Sarah at her memorial service at her university one month after her death:

I remember Sarah as an amazingly dedicated, intelligent, and silly person. But most of all I remember her as an amazing friend. Although our paths crossed many times growing up in Auburn, Sarah and I never really knew each other until high school. We got to know each other through band, BEST robotics, and various classes we took together. I remember in band class we would always make faces at each other and goof off until class started, you could always count on Sarah to make you laugh! In BEST Sarah was always around when you needed her, she was the one that was always there helping with the bake sales during Auburn games, even in the rain. Sarah was dedicated to all her studies. She managed to graduate with every honor possible from Auburn High, despite missing over half of Spring Semester our Junior year. She was dedicated to everything she did never letting illness or anything else get in her way.
My friendship with Sarah really grew out of her illness. When she first got sick I would go visit her in the hospital almost every day after school. We would hang out and talk, watch movies, play games, and just have fun. I would spend hours with Sarah each day, not leaving until my parents called wondering if I was ever coming home. Sarah and I continued hanging out as often as we could throughout high school. Our senior year she joined the Youth Orchestra that I was in, so we started making the commute each week together, giving us more time to hang out and of course more time to make faces at each other during practice. After high school Sarah and I both went off to different schools, but we sent each other messages on facebook constantly. Whenever we were both home we would get together for food and board games.
Sarah taught me a great deal over these past few years. She taught me to appreciate a good pedicure, especially if it involved red nail polish. She taught me to be strong, and to let nothing ever get in my way. And she taught me the value of friendship. A good friend is the most amazing gift anyone could receive.
I was fortunate enough to be able to spend my Spring break with Sarah in the Hospital. It was just like old times, watching movies, playing board games, and eating take out. The day after I left Sarah called me. She told me with great excitement in her voice “Kat, kat you brought me good luck, I’m getting a heart!” I got to tell her I loved her, and hear her so excited about getting a heart. I will always remember Sarah just like I remember my last conversation with her. I will remember her love, and her happiness.