Wishing the semester would end...

My first real semester of college is over in a week and a half and while I'm super excited about that I can't help but feel that I've utterly failed at it all.

As far as classes and such go I'm not really taking all that much, only 2 real classes because I dropped programming *shakes fist at visual basic* But I have all these little crap classes that take up way too much time for no credit. My chemistry class just blows, I hate chemistry and therefore have no incentive to study it. Somedays in that class I wish we had all the busy work that we had in high school that drilled the material into your head. My trig class is ok, but the teacher (I refuse to call him a professor, he's just a little graduate student) shows so much favoritism that it just irks me. I don't really care if he likes me, but the fact that he completely ignores me in class and my papers always seem to be a bit more spitefully graded does irk me. I had this fantasy in my head that as long as I got away from Auburn everything would be alright. I hated it so much that I put all my problems on the town or the school or the people there. And while I still do hate Auburn, I'm beginning to realize that if I'd stayed there I would have had the same problems, probably a few more dealing with drunken roommates and the like though. But I'm going to have problems no matter where I go *lightbulb*, yeah I know I'm slow sometimes.

Although classes are highly important that's not all that college is about. I've found some awesome friends Lindsey who I make fun of a lot, but only cuz I love her and she's just so fun to make fun of. Steve who in my anti-emo ninja. And of course Matt, who goes extra out of his way to make sure everything is right in my world. Somedays I wish I had more friends, but I know that the few close ones I have will be there for a very long time, and no matter what I do they'll forgive me. And my senior year of high school was just toturous and friendless so I'm very thankful to be done with that. My roommates although they irk me sometimes and I don't see them a lot are good roommates. They're only loud sometimes, and the dishes usually get done and milk bought etc. I wish I was better friends with them, but we get along and that's good enough for me. My body is really what I'm hating the most right now. Since I left Auburn my knees have gotten worse (probably from the lack of exercise) and my head has just decided to be a bitch. I've been to 5 or 6 different doctors and I'm tired of them, tired of my body, and tired of my immune system, or lack there of.

I didn't post all week because I was super stressed (to the point where I was getting very sick). Now I'm still sick and stressed, and I just want this semester to be over. Next semester I'll start over and try harder, maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed everyday this semester. Maybe we should all make some new years/spring semester resolutions...